I am only human

I am not needy any more
I have found a sacred love
That can fulfil my craving
For a satisfying acceptance
But still remembering 
To let slip might be difficult 

Such a big part played 

A moment in my life 

How I can categorize 
All the tears I spilled 
Listening to haunting songs
Wishing for a way out

For someone so young

Much pain I have lived 
I hardly slept soundly 
Kept myself awake often
Wondering in deep thought
Filling many a diary page

I did not have to end up

With a nightmarish past 
If you could let me be
The mysterious person I am
Maintaining my intellect

What happened to enduring?

The length it took
To break free from tension 
Holding on to an idea
Of all the hurt I subdued
To wish we were friends
I am only human after all

From the heart 

Char