Disappointed

I've been a bit disoriented
Somewhat out of routine
Trying my best to stabilise
Making a norm of it

This feels so out of my depth
Not in control
And feeling disappointed

Have I really worked that hard
Did I give it my all
Or just cave into weakness
What happened to will power

This feels so out of my depth
Not in control
And feeling disappointed

I just have to get back
The drive I lost
Push through just a little
Keep telling myself

This feels so out of my depth
Not in control
And feeling disappointed

I'm sitting here
Beating myself up
Is it really worth it
Will I be happy in the end

From the heart
Char